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An open letter to the Mum in pain

Dear Mum in pain

Most of all I want you to know I see you, I see you and I feel your pain.  I admire your strength, grace and beauty despite the difficult hand life has dealt you.

You battle either physical pain or mental pain or the combination of both and it’s hard, really hard some days!

Please believe me, I undestand how much it took for you to climb out of your warm bed and pick out your outfit for the day.

Frustration and pain

You feel as though you look a mess. You feel so frustrated that you don’t have the time or the energy for yourself anymore.

Anger and pain

You feel angry at yourself and it feels like you have let yourself go.

It feels like you are a shadow of the person you used to be. Fearing judgement, you have been hiding  yourself away. You won’t always believe this but I promise, you are still beautiful and you are still you.

I understand how hard it was to apply your makeup to hide your tired puffy eyes. They are eyes that are still red from the tears you cried last night, you hide them like you hide your pain.

Strength and pain

You are so strong and although you can’t see it, you are moving mountains daily.


I know how hard it was to remember all of the things your children needed for their day.

Always so busy pushing the pain to the back of your mind, you make your children your focus. You exhaust yourself and sometimes you do things on auto pilot and can’t remember doing them. Their pack lunches, letters to sign, PE kits and a snack for playtime, the fear of forgetting something worries you daily.

You organised your family, your pets, your work and your day though all whilst trying to block out the pain, This is so so hard to do and I know the amount of strength it takes to do it.

Doubt and pain

As you drove your children to  school, you doubted and second guessed yourself. Sometimes you struggle to remember and you struggle to focus because you are so so tired.

Worry and pain

Worrying that you had forgotten their drink, worrying that you might have forgotten to do a piece of homework with them and that they would get into trouble for it. Worrying  about being so exhausted last night and having no energy left to do school reading books. You worry all of the time. This is why you read the school books in the morning, in the car, while you wait for the school gates to open. You do this so you know the books have been done.

Guilt and pain

You feel guilt once your children go into school because you were so quiet during the car journey, trying to remember the things you didn’t remember.

Guilt that you didn’t sing with your children, talk about the day to come or listen to them chat. The fog is consuming sometimes, I know this.

Love and pain

I know though, that despite the fog and the fear of forgetting. Those children have gone off to school with bags full of love.

You organised their bags last night, you packed them up with a snack for the day, you made sure everything they needed was there last night because you knew how tired you would feel in the morning.

Putting everyone and everything  before you, you make sure they are ok before even thinking about yourself. You still worry though, I know.


You dreaded walking your children into school today.

You felt a mess.

Feeling like the whole world could tell that you didn’t have your shit together today, you walked in avoiding eye contact.

You felt invisible and like you didn’t fit in.


I promise you, just as I do, others look at you with admiration.

They look at you and wonder how you keep your shit together when most would fall apart. They look at you and see your strength, if only you could see it too.

Your children see your strength.

Super Mum

In the eyes of your children you are ‘Super Mum,’ you are their hero.

Please start to see what they see.

Your children love you for all that you are, not all that you could have been.

Children live for the moment and you being there for that moment, full of the love and joy you bring to their lives, is all that they truly need.

Picture from – Pinterest


The way we feel about ourselves comes from within, Your children aren’t bothered by your scars and imperfections. Yes they’ll notice when you dress up and make an effort but they won’t bat an eyelid when you don’t. Most children love a lazy PJ’s day, make your rest day a time to chill as a family. There is nothing nicer than a chill day with movies, hugs and yummy food. Most importantly you get to rest but this is resting as a family and it does us all good when we need it. There is nothing wrong with lazy days now and then so embrace them.


Children love unconditionally, they love your softness, there’s nothing nicer than a cuddly Mum to snuggle up to.

They love you, they really, really love you.

You are all that they’ve known, wanted and ever wished for, all wrapped up in one lovely Mummy bundle.

Children aren’t bothered if you’ve not had time to shave your legs in weeks or if this is day five of relying on dry shampoo. They don’t care if you haven’t had your nails done or if you aren’t wearing the latest designer perfume or clothes.

They won’t notice if  you haven’t been able to muster the strength or had time to fit in or afford false eyelashes and hair extensions like some of the other Mums out there. Yes they’ll comment on the other ladies pretty hair but nobody in their eyes will ever compare or be as beautiful to them as their Mum.

Your children just want you, they want your big smile, your hugs, just you to greet them as they run out of school. They get excited about you being there, and will be so happy to see you. They won’t notice if today it’s your hair scraped back, messy bun, wrapped up warm , comfort clothed kind of self.

It’s you they love, not who or what you look like.

Please try to stop being so hard on yourself.

You are enough

I see a beautiful, strong and inspirational lady. A Mother with a beautiful heart.

Never think you aren’t enough, you are!

Please don’t compare yourself to others, your children will not compare you because you are their Mum and they are proud of all that you are and all that you do.

Best intentions

I know you had every intention of tackling that mountain of ironing, blitzing the house and catching up on all your work today. You just couldn’t do it today though, the task was far to great.

You spent all day feeling guilt because your body needed to rest.

Feeling like a failure, like you are weak.

You aren’t though,you know you aren’t.

Marching through pain

The fact you need rest today is a sign of how strong you were yesterday. You’ve been marching forward through the pain and you’ve kept going for everyone around you.

You are incredibly strong and today, your body needs to recharge, let it.

I know you spent all day looking forward to your children coming home, you couldn’t wait to see their little faces and snuggle up with them and watch a movie.

Exhaustion and pain

I also know how frustrated you feel at the tiredness.

It took so much out of you, just a simple school run and the knackering task of looking like you’ve got your shit together at the school gates.

The tiredness you feel today means that trying to organise dinner, homework, bath time and bed is feeling like an uphill climb, walking backwards through thick sticky mud. You did it though, they are warm, fed and happy…..see ‘Super Mum!’

It’s hard and I know the movie probably didn’t happen. You felt guilty about this.

You feel like if you sit down and stop, your eyes won’t be able to stay open. I know you kept moving because you had to, you couldn’t allow yourself to give in to the exhaustion.  Keeping going when your body isn’t always willing takes strength, you are strong!

You are incredible

Doing everything you needed to do and more! Enjoying every little story of the school day, playing Barbies and taking turns on the latest computer game. Homework completed and school bags and uniforms out and ready for action.

Why do you doubt yourself?

Look how incredible you are!

Why feel guilty about the things you didn’t do when you should be feeling proud of the things you managed to achieve?

I know how much you loved tucking your children into bed. Bedtime stories are the best and watching your child fall asleep in your arms is one of life’s greatest gifts, a gift that gives you the power to keep going.


I know though that once your children are asleep, you will cry again.

You will cry for all that you were, all that you wanted to be and all that you can’t be. Things always feel much worse in the quiet of the night.

Tomorrow when you awake your day will either be a repeat of today or you may be lucky and have a good pain free day. I know though that if it’s a good day, you will race around doing everything you couldn’t manage today and then inevitably have a repeat of today on the following.

It’s a never ending cycle. The good is always masked by the bad, I know this.

Fear and pain

The pain frightens you some days but you don’t let anyone know you are scared for fear of scaring them. You silently suffer and swallow the fear, this is strength, you are very strong.

Slow down

Slow down and allow yourself to breathe.

Allow yourself to feel what your body is doing. Be guided by your pain, don’t stop but don’t push through the pain either. Find your balance and be gentle on yourself when needed.

Love yourself

I know you just want your life back and to be the person you once were but in life we only move forward, never backwards. You have to embrace, love and understand the person you are now, it’s the only way, I promise you.

Look after yourself and be kind to yourself, you have so many years ahead of you. PACE, pace and pace again!

You can’t burn yourself out trying to achieve the impossible.

If only you could see what everyone else sees.

Believe in yourself

If only you could see what I see in you and believe in yourself.

Please see how strong, brave and fearless you are.

You keep moving, you keep fighting when most would expect you to crumble.

Facing up to your difficulties with true courage.

Hiding your pain from those around you and  working so hard to look and act like everyone else. You do this for them, you do this to make everyone else more comfortable without a second thought for how you truly feel.


Try not to hold back from saying things that should be said, be honest. How can people understand and support you, if you bottle things up to yourself. If you are hurting, talk to someone, let them into your world.

Nothing to prove

Please don’t doubt yourself or second guess yourself anymore.

You are truly amazing.

Stop yourself from feeling guilty for the little things in life because you work so hard and tackle the big things admirably.

You have nothing to prove.

Most importantly, if you have a ‘write off’ day, embrace it! Understand that you needed hat day because you’ve probably been over-functioning and forgetting to pace.

Please ask for help.

You must try to stop trying to do it all, it’s okay to ask for a helping hand when you need it.

I know you are fiercely independent and proud, these are your strengths but it’s okay to let others in.

It’s not admitting defeat or a sign of weakness. Hopefully by asking for help, you will get the break you sometimes, so desperately need.




One of life’s fighters.

I promise, you are enough!

It is so important to try to believe that you are still all you ever were and would have been. Believe me, you are still you with an extra special something added in for good measure. You have had to learn so many of life’s lessons and the wisdom gained from this is truly inspirational.

Inside of you there’s a spark, a light that shines brightly, please see it, please allow others to see it.

Learn to love who you are today and all that she’s achieved and overcome.

You are awesome Mumma,

Love from

A Mumma who knows


PIcture from – Pinterest


6 Replies to “An open letter to the Mum in pain”

  • I have been posting letters from the fibro warrior to their friends recently. This letter goes in the opposite direction but it does the same in helping others understand the challenges. Thank you!

  • By the time I got to the bottom I struggled to read for tears.

    I think I’ve gone through every feeling, thought & emotion written.

    Thank you for letting me know I’m not on my own.

    And thank you 😘💕
    Sharon aka Lipstick_Powder_andpain

  • Wow- such a thorough, thought provoking post. We really are too hard on ourselves, aren’t we x Lowen @ livingpositivelywithdisability.com

    • Thank you Lowen, we really are hun. We try so hard to keep up with the world and instead of feeling proud of ourselves we feel frustrated at not being able to do more. We all need to see our strengths instead of our weaknesses but it’s hard! Sending hugs xxx

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